reality bites September 23, 2009

Hmmm start with thinking about “am I having the odd mind?or them?”
5 “gw merasa” ini,yg lagi gw pikirin bgt skrg:
1. Gw merasa orang orang seperti blinded with ♡ dan itu SALAH
2. Gw merasa hanya gw dan salah satu sahabat gw yg bisa objektif
3. Gw merasa they are as stupid as they can be
4. Gw merasa gw harus ngebenerin jalan pikiran mereka,tapi ya peduli setan!mereka juga ga peduli
5. Gw merasa people being dramatic when they are in ♡
Mungkin gw yg sotoy.but people pleasee!cmoon.look at the reality now.beberapa temen gw yg gw rasa salah memilih orang,semuanya jadi ngebuat gw gerah!
Masih ada “mungkin” sih
1.Mungkin mereka pikir itu yg terbaik buat mereka (darimana lo tau dia yg terbaik buat lo.only heaven knows for God sake!neither me knows that.apa yg lo pikir terbaik buat lo blom tentu itu yg terbaik!hhhh!)
2.Mungkin mereka pikir.ini hidup gw,ga usah ikut campur (well!okay..tapi klo nanti lo sakit hati,lo drop!apa lo masih mau kita ga ikut campur?hmmmm.gw rasa ga!gw rasa lo akan butuh temen.tapi lo ga dengerin mereka)
3.Mungkin mereka udah buta (itu SALAH!karena apa?!lo tuh ga akan bisa meliat lebih luas saat lo buta.dan lo songong!karena ga dengerin omongan orang yg bisa lihat lebih dari lo.ya ampun tolong!kalo lebih dari satu org ngeliat itu ga beres.ya itu emang ga beres!)
4.Mungkin cuman mereka yang bisa tau apa yg mereka mau dan omongan orang lain cuman jadi beban buat pikiran lo (kita bawel!kita galak!kita sadis karena kita care.kalo ga!kita bakal baik baik aja.dan biarin lo mau ngapain aja.apa yang lo mau belum tentu apa yg lo butuh)
5.Mungkin mereka yakin ini bener (yah percaya deh ama feeling orang lain yg lebih bisa objektif!man,lo ga hidup sendiri)

Disini gw dan temen gw..hanya berperan sebagai sahabat yg baik.kita mungkin capek ingetin lo.lo mungkin capek dengerin kita.kita ga pernah berniat jelek atas kehidupan lo!tapi kita hanya pengen kalian ga jatoh ke tangan yg salah!realistis aja lah

ORANG YG ADA DI SAMPING LO ADALAH SAHABAT LO YG JUGA JADI SPION LO.MEREKA LEBIH BISA LIAT HAL HAL YG LO SENDIRI GA BISA LIAT!AND YOU CAN COUNT ON THEM FOR DEFINITE

2 in 1 February 25, 2009

sebenernya tadi udah kesel cuman biasa aja..pas nyampe rumah gw malah panas..ga tau juga kenapa ya?! mau dapet kali nih gw.. dan gw posting 2 kali malem ini..

bhubung curhat partner gw gone entah dimana..fa?ente dimenong?!

hmmm…marah2 disini aja deh ya..

duuuh..si curhat partner gw lagi ilang..aakkhh!!
kesel dewek dah gw..fa!!where are you????

jam 12:26, from: 08131077xxx
SMS received: hai dear..gw udah balik dari BPPN..dimana lo?

(ini no.siapa juga?hmm..putra sih harusnya)

SMS sent: maaf!!ini siapa?

SMS received: ini putra..sombong amat lo..

SMS sent: hahaha..pantes pake dear..udah ah jijay lo..siapa yang sombong..ganti no. ga bilang..gw lagi di rumah..lo dimana kak?

(fyi..putra ini udah kayak kakak gw..emang kadang nyebelin..hahaha..kadang juga bisa jadi bapak dadakan..bisa jadi adek dadakan..dulu waktu SD sempet jadi pacar dadakan..hahahaha..ini manusia bayaran banget deh)

SMS received: di bandara nih gw..mau balik ke s’pore..hehehe..maaf banget ya far!!dimaafkan?

SMS sent: lo di sepinggan apa soekarno hatta?kok pulang?janji lo mana kak?payah ah..kuciwa diriku..

……………………krik krik………………sms di kacangin!!

(kupret..akhirnya gw ke tempat cumi..ngejain TA..pulang makan sate..di tempat makan sate..ada telp..tapi ga gw angkat..soalnya ga kedengeran)

trrrring!!bunyi missedcall alert..

ngecek no. dari +65 blablabla..akkkh!!

SMS sent: ini siapa? lo kak?

SMS received: iya..marah lo ya? telp gw di kacangin? dih gitu aja marah..malu ah ma umur..

(yeeee…menurut lo?!)

SMS sent: ga juga..bete aja sih..soalnya ada yang ilang tiba tiba..ngumbar ngumbar mau dateng..tapi ga jelas..yah udahlahyaaaaa..

SMS received: loh kok nyolot lo?gw lagi ribet far..lagi ada masalah..bukan gw ga mau kabarin..tapi masalah kerjaan gw hectic..ngerti dikit kek!!ya ampun..terserah lo deh..gw jadi emosi beneran ama lo deh!!

(fyi..gw ama putra kalo ngomong emang ga pake saringan..pas disini nih..INI NIH..gw jadi panaaaasss..ifaaaaaa!!!gw kesel..kesel ampe lobang pantat..akkkkh)

SMS sent: whatever!!if you just dont care then i wont!!

jam 10.04 (ini sekitaran lah)

tulitit tit tit tit..tulit tit tit tit..(ringtonenya berbunyi..hehe ga penting)

+6598109xxx

intinya putra nelp. asalnya minta maaf..tapi ujung2nya nyolot lagi..tau ah!!ngeselin banget lo..ini nih omongan dy yang gw inget banget!!

putra: siapa yang ga peduli sih..kalo gw ga peduli ngapain gw kabarin lo..ntar ga sms salah..ga nelp. juga salah..lo tuh..emang anak kecil..udah dong!!i come to you..coz many things to share..but i cant!!you haven’t grow up yet..

gw: ha? mau ngomong soal dewasa2an ya kak?iya oke..gw marah ama lo..soalnya lo janji sama gw..siapa yang lebih ga dewasa sih?iya sorry lo banyak pikiran..tapi sorry kak..kayak gw bilang..kalo lo ga peduli..gw juga ga!!maaf aja..i give what i get..sorry kalo gw mau egois..gw terlalu banyak ngasih ke orang tapi gw dapet apa?!mungkin bukan lo..tapi seengaknya gw ngarep banyak sama lo..gw bukannya mau pamrih kak..ya ampun!!gw emosi juga soalnya lo nyolot..

putra: …………….(diem)………………gw ga pernah denger lo semarah ini dek!!okey then if you think i dont care..then you just dont bother it!!tapi gw nyolot karena gw emosi..lo kesemprot..kalo marah silahkan..salah gw juga ujung2nya kan?you push your ego too much dear!!

gw: duh lo selalu ngebuat posisi lo ga enak di gw!!tau ah..kalo lo emang santai aja dari tadi..gw juga santai!!tau ah kak..berantem ama lo capek..pacar bukan..suami bukan!!

putra:untung lo bukan pacar gw..untung keke!!okey..well dont reach me this whole week..coz i going to be busy..really busy!!just let you know if you care..if not..terserah lo aja!!lo kira lo doang yang capek?dih..

gw: yeah!!sholud i????lo bahkan ga nanya “apa kabar?” sama gw..ya udah kak!!whatever you say lah..gw agak malas nih gw..

kira kira gini deh intinya..nelp.nya sih 1 jam lebih..tapi yaaa…ga tau lah gimana orang menanggapinya..ini berantem ke dua gw terbesar sama doi..dulu waktu sd kita pernah berantem gara2 adek sepupunya putra..si ORI..ga penting banget deh..ga tau baekkan apa ga gw..lemes banget sih yang jelas..keselnya mentok tok tok tok..ya olooooooooooh!!!!!keseeeeeeeeeeel…..

sekilas: dy temen gw dari SD..jarang gw sebut sebut sih..soalnya emang jarang banget kontek2an..sempet ilang ga jelas dimana..tapi ketemu lagi..berkat nadia juga..si temen SD gw yang sekota sama putra..udah sekita 11 taun kita temenan..emang sih waktu SD gw sempet doyan ama nih anak..tapi makin ke sini..duh tinta layaw (untung dy ga tau blog gw..hahaha..kalo ga malu juga gw)..setaun yang lalu kita ketemu sih..tapi ga lama cuman ngobrol..lo bayangin ama nadia aja yang setaun sekali pulang..gw masi ketemu..masa doi yang sempet ga ketauan kabarnya..udah setaun ga ketemu..begini sih..ah kak!!i still look up to you kok..but you really get in my nerve tonite!!

GOD MUST BE CRAZY February 4, 2009

hari senen malem gw ngoprak ngaprik dvd2 gw dirumah..sumpah tanpa ku sadari koleksi dvd gw udah kayak toko di mangga dua..banyak bgt bgt..rasanya pengen buka usaha toko..hmm namanya PT.  Dividi Jaya…gw menemukan beberapa pelem oke.. ada awake..hot fuzz..steal..the X files..God must be crazy..Something about mary dan transporter 2.. biar udah nonton gw tetep aja nyari kerjaan..tonton lagi ajeee..setelah nonton something about mary (rencana gw nonton yang ringan dulu baru yang berat) gw nonton GOD must be crazy yang pertama…hahahhaha..ini film kocak bgt..gw buka ketawa karena isinya atau intisari filmnya…tapi efek2 di film  itu yang jadul bgt..percis WARKOP!! dengan mobil mobil jeep tuan takur ala film film india..wah kocak bgt buat musroom nih.. eh selese God must be crazy..mata mulai lelah..posisi mulai seperti putri duyung terdampar…muli memindahkan semua cemilan ke dekat tempat tempat tidur..mulai nyalain AC..mulai selimutan..mulai matiin lampu..dan YAK!! saya tertidur dengan keadaan dipidi player menyala..tak lama sang ipeh menelpun..ga jadi deh tidur ampe subuh..hahaha..niatnya mau curhat eh ga jadi..

lalu selasa,fiiiuhh!!!this nite was a rough nite for me..baru kali ini gw nangis ampe ngantuk..hahaha..curcol dikiiit oke?i hate being mellow..tapi thanx to you two..i felt alot better..sorry ya gw drama queen bgt malem itu..duh tuh kan jadi kepancing mau curhat lagi..LANJUUUT kembali ke cerita lain..

hari ini..heboh lah..gw menemukan teman main fashion wars baruuu..hahaha..paramicha dan bung wenda gunawan..yiuuuk!! pagi pagi ym ane nyala..haha..nita manggil gw..eh tak dinyana bapak gw soalnya yang nyalain ym gw..kayaknya mau sidak (inspeksi mendadak) deh..nita kena batunye..hahaha..lain kali nit klo manggil..tanya dulu “fara nya ada?”.. gak lama gw bales ym nita..setelah bapak saya memanggil..kirain bokap gw masi bubu (haha sok imut..cih!!)..baru gw bales dikit..eh indra manggil..dengan isi: halo om leo hehe apa kabar om?..loh?!saya tersentak..waw!!(apa sih?)..gw bales aja..ndra ini bapak gw beneran loh..hahaha..halo om endang!!..lagi lagi tak dinyana doi ternyata emang mau chat ama babe gw..jiah!!truss aja paaa!!truuusss..eksis di temen2 ku..haha sirik!! lalu berlanjut yman ama nita..TOPIK HARI INI: NITA MAU GANTI NAMA..karena nama doi itu punya track record jelek di negara bule itu..jadi namanya diganti bukannlah NITA (baca: NAITCHAA..biar bule kedengerannya haha)..berhubung nama lengkapnya Apricianita Kusumo..jadi gw saranin beberapa potongan nama..Apri..Cian..Nita..Kus..Sumo..hahaha tersadar nama2 saran gw itu tak manusiawi..karena kepotong kentang jadi aneh..dan akhirnya lahirlah nama baru (saran nita) Prici..hmm gw bingung kalo orang manggil doi jadi PRI!!PRI!! hahaha SUPRI??? ya sudahlah..nita sekarang punya nama baruuuu..PRICI kependekan dari IPRICI’INITI KISIMI..hahaha..biar imut nit..

lalu siangnya hasta dateng..mau ngerjain TA..gak lama indra dan wenda pun hadir..mulai deh ngelawak2 ampe sumpah kepala gw pusing..ngomong ga ada isinya semua..hahaha..yang ada TA hasta terbengkalai..malah becandaan..pas sore tiba2 wenda ber ide..mau maen band ga? asal2an aja..hasta langsung yuk yuk aja..langsung minta gw cari studio terdekat..setelah nanya cungki..akhirnya dapet..yang ada asal2an banget deh disana..lebih jelas karaokean deh..lagunya kita ga ada yang ampe beres..masi jagoan pengamen bisa maen lagu ampe beres..lah kita?bikin maluuu..malemnya binbin dateng..tak lama hanya beberapa saat kita pulang ke rumah gw..di rumah cuman berantakin kamar gw dan nonton god must be crazy LAGI!!tapi nanggung gara2…..HASTA MAU NONTON CINTA FITRI..omaigot ta!!ibu ibu PKK banget sih lo..hahaha..

imlek paling mellow sepanjang masehi January 26, 2009

tell me what bestfriend is

the people who never thinking about a dismiss

tell each other ” i take you just like this?”

and have everything for a bliss

with all of the time that cant tell

that we know each other so well

every story just ring a bell

wish we never had one with the title “farewell”

the story of us, thats what we have

spending much more time guys, just my fav

wishing never say “goodbye” and wave

coz you are the bestest guys, God ever gave

ini mellow bgt ya..tapi hari ini gw banyak banget diem begong and wishing for a friend beside me and shared my tears…jujur hari ini berat bgt buat gw..tapi berkat kalian semua..everything just feel alot better(makasi ya fa..ia..cung..yo..nit..cim..bab..ta..smuanya deh..thanx alot)

hehehe…uurrrgghh..i hate being mellow!! LOVE PEACE and G 4 UL ya besties!! (haha..jibang)

am i doing the rite thing for US????? December 22, 2008

do i deserve to feel stressed?or depressed?i dont know..i really cant to erase you..you are a tattoo..i had it and it stay forever..are you?

if i could change my mind..and turn back the time..i will say another word for you..god!!why it always be you?why????????????i had enough..and its never enough for you..you said you’ll change..will you?

i feel flat..i feel stupid..dump..idiot..you come now and ask for all the things that we had back then!!where were you?when i have nothing to give and share with you again..you came for it again!when i have everything to give and share..you never ask me for it..

good GOD!!i really dont know how to expalin it in words..just nothing can describe this feeling..beyond angry..beyond sick..beyond regret..this is the last chance..this is it!!and its not gonna be long..trust me..so dont just sit back and relax then hoping that i will came after you…

we will see what we can have again..i will see how you change for us?and you will see what am i gonna do next?it’s not i’m doing my revenge..but sorry!!this is what i felt before to fight for your heart..and you deserve to felt that..you got it?

12122008(oops!!he did it again..) December 13, 2008

this is what happen in 12122008..

another HIM!! i can say NO BIG THINGS HAPPEN..at least for me!!

huff!!males sebenernya nulis ini..ngebahas yang ini..if i can turn back the time..i’ll erase you from the moment i met you..but maybe with you..i know what i see in men..i know how to deal with bastard..i know how hold back my exploding emotion..for sure i really know what patient means!!from that side..u teach me alot..

well..i do regret you..but i thank for having you too dear!!

its been too long for me to struggling with my feeling..it hurts that day but just cant let you go..but now..i hurts me to seeing you come back and ask for more..

that flowers..it is nice..it damn beautiful!! but..it makes me realize that you just dont know me that good..you dont need flowers to apologize..so do i..i need prove baby!!since what we have back then..apologize is just become a regular word that means nothing for me when it comes rite outta your mouth..its just too easy to say..but i guess you dont have guts to prove it..

i am angry to you..but what can i say..you just cant see my anger!!please dont come back for more..be VANISH!!

i got a tattoo!! December 9, 2008

it’s been 2 years from now…i’ve been banned myself to you..no more casual even serious conversation with you now..i’m not that naive..i do miss you sometimes..i do want to have you again like those times we had before..

i do remember all joy that we had..highschool things just great to imagine..the word “love” and “miss” just came easily from you..it was feel so good back then but its just a big NO for me now!! that moment when you are crying in front of me..it just blow me away and makes me panic!!haha..it was funny..but the tears just doesn’t work anymore..coz’i got the more tears after that..all the impulsive things you did for just makes me like i fall for the rite man coz’ all the suprises just make you soo different than other..but now your impulsive things just annoy me more and more and feels just impulsive is soo you..and i hate it!! the lil’ attention that you gave to every lil’ things that i like and dislike, i love it so much back then but now, i just know that you only concern to all those things just to make yourself clean from things that i dislike..

how ever i hate all those things that i hate about you but still i love it in the past..and maybe there are still possibility for me to like it again..it can be happening again!!

try my best to move on and get you behind..meeting this man..the mr.veryniceguy..he is a lot better than you..far away better..but still i end up with thoughts of you in my brain..you are not perfect coz’ i know you too well..and also you..and i’m okay with it!!i feel okay when you are not better than him..

you just turn me into someone “naked”!!you see the real me..i can’t lie to you..coz’ you just know it..you just know me..and i just too scared to admit that you can fit me..i’m scared to know maybe you are the one..do you believe it when you hurt me??i just can forget it in a blink..i make myself to hate you..you are already has your own part in my heart..a part that i’ll always have..that will never come off like a tattoo!!!