we had the moment,babe! January 7, 2010

Hmm..mellow tiba tiba ngeliat foto doski (bahasanyaa doskiiii)..hahaha..
Hhhhh! We had our moment babe! Why it has to evaporate easily now..you had somebody else and I don’t bother it again but………(But what? I don’t know) Hehehe gw udah kayak biduan dangdut ya..mellownyee! (Dengan dendangan lagu lilis karlina mendayu dayu disambung dengan potongan lagu tenar ‘mister toyib mister toyib,why you’re not go home go home..your children your children,calling calling in your name’ dan tengiang ngiang poster beniqno aquino di otak ini) hahaha momentnya sampah bgt! Ga laah..

Serius ah! Hehe..yaah! Regret?yes, I had a few..tapi ya udahlah yaa..buktinya dari dulu sampe skrg kita ga akan pernah bisa maju ke track ‘in relationship’..even I miss the old ‘us’ as ‘whatever it is’..and even the ‘whatever it is’ tortured me aloooot! But as far as I can go,I know I’m stepping strong in my own track..somebody told me: ‘what doesn’t kill you,makes you stronger’
Babe, thank you for being my history! You told me how to survive one deepest pain also one highest love

i got a tattoo!! December 9, 2008

it’s been 2 years from now…i’ve been banned myself to you..no more casual even serious conversation with you now..i’m not that naive..i do miss you sometimes..i do want to have you again like those times we had before..

i do remember all joy that we had..highschool things just great to imagine..the word “love” and “miss” just came easily from you..it was feel so good back then but its just a big NO for me now!! that moment when you are crying in front of me..it just blow me away and makes me panic!!haha..it was funny..but the tears just doesn’t work anymore..coz’i got the more tears after that..all the impulsive things you did for just makes me like i fall for the rite man coz’ all the suprises just make you soo different than other..but now your impulsive things just annoy me more and more and feels just impulsive is soo you..and i hate it!! the lil’ attention that you gave to every lil’ things that i like and dislike, i love it so much back then but now, i just know that you only concern to all those things just to make yourself clean from things that i dislike..

how ever i hate all those things that i hate about you but still i love it in the past..and maybe there are still possibility for me to like it again..it can be happening again!!

try my best to move on and get you behind..meeting this man..the mr.veryniceguy..he is a lot better than you..far away better..but still i end up with thoughts of you in my brain..you are not perfect coz’ i know you too well..and also you..and i’m okay with it!!i feel okay when you are not better than him..

you just turn me into someone “naked”!!you see the real me..i can’t lie to you..coz’ you just know it..you just know me..and i just too scared to admit that you can fit me..i’m scared to know maybe you are the one..do you believe it when you hurt me??i just can forget it in a blink..i make myself to hate you..you are already has your own part in my heart..a part that i’ll always have..that will never come off like a tattoo!!!